je ferais le tour du monde - ta ta ta ta ta ta ta!

le film [la môme] est essentiellement constitué par des tristes moments de sa vie, mais les chansons sont incroyables!

[et j'ai été étourdi de voir autant de gens ivres!]

ce qu'est une femme!

silence/sadness

ah, mrs. dalloway… always giving parties to cover the silence [sadness].
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that's me.

urlaub

this week between xmas and new year has been my vacation week. despite some meetings at the university and some work from home, i've been taking some time off from all that running pace and i've been resting (and drinking, haha) a lot.

so, this music/video illustrates my last days. :)

xmas eve - xmas song

and my xmas song this year is:

the melody of a fallen tree - windsor for the derby.
(this song makes me want to travel)

yesterday me and my brother stayed home during the church xmas celebration (when everybody go out of the house and we're freeeeee, haha). we listened to pixies out loud (REALLY out lod), and i danced for almost two hours. despite my (still) bad toe, everything went fine. it was one of the best parts of my day.

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last sunday i stayed in bed the entire afternoon watching movies and reading. i watched das leben der anderen. very very nice movie.

the perfect mix

and now the scene.



i've been re-analyzing tons of aspects of my life. i've been re-thinking concepts, situations and importances, re-watching movies and re-listening to some songs i just haven't for a while. i watched lost in translation when i first went to sao paulo. i was 16 at that time and i didn't know much about the world (as if i knew a lot now). i was there to present a project from high school and, on one of my days-off, i decided to go to the movies. fact is that there, sitting at the cinema, i firstly "saw", in front of me, a feeling i always felt and that i just didn't know how to describe: after they say good-bye to each other, the song starts playing and the car, moving, shows the city. in this special part of the scene we have such a great mixture of nostalgia and excitement that it almost terrifies me (of course, it goes along with the very intense sentiments the actors just left us with). and that's exactly what i have already felt a lot in my not-so-long (until now) existence. not only in farewell situations (which aren't of my preference), but in a bunch of others. and it is so strangely good to perceive a capture of reality like this one. it's amazing.

just like what?

listen to the girl
as she takes on half the world
moving up and so alive
in her honey dripping beehive
beehive
it's good, so good, it's so good
so good

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and i just can't live decently in this heat.
(but i still want to live in a big city like the one above)

tick of time

it's far too early in the morning to be trying to call you,
and far too early in the daytime to be thinking about that.

but i, (but i), but i, (but i), but i am.

what did i do in a past life, oh to deserve this,
yeah the way i make myself,
he's far too innocent to be a part of such a cruel world,
and it is, and it is and it is.

and so i'll go, yes i'll go, so i'll take that traaain and ride,
hoping i can write her a rhyme, that might stop the tick of time,
get off this situation and feel fine,
get off this situation and feel fine.

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sundays always get me down.

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and i truly need some PROTAGONISM.